That proved to be a blessing in disguise as I broke down many walls and made peace with situations that I carried for most of my life and at that time my professional life became my personal hell, dealing with negative mutherfukers who are willing to go the extra mile to break down my character and lie on me so hard that I needed to remove myself from those spaces and protect my mental health.
I parted ways with my modeling agency, which was long overdue because we didn`t share the same vision of who I am and the team that first signed me was no longer worked there and the new one was alright but not quite perfect but no love lost at all. Just lesson learned and learning to create my own moves and trust myself in spaces that see me bring me to the table.
But I can`t lie as things came to the end, I felt so unseen and boxed up and once it ended I was happy yet very discouraged to step back into this fashion world in that form. Fashion will always be one of my loves but definitely retiring that part of me for sure but never say never.
I went on to focus on me and redirect my energy and change jobs and find my feet again, which took sometime and me centering myself.
New places also presented the same ole lessons over and over and over but it was alot of people projecting their own negativity and showing their true colours and karma being a bad bitch that she is, she showed her ass time after time, which is so laughable and pathetic.
I always find it weird how people ride hard for those who came for me and they end up getting the same or worse treatment than me from those same people - out here looking very clownish.
I know myself so clearly and know that I am not for everyone and everyone ain`t for me and I never force myself to fit in and just move accordingly and when people show their true colours I`m able to take the lesson out of the stupidity and remove them from my life.
"Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don't resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like."-Lao Tzu
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